Yesterday~

i'm sooooo frustrated after school...
waited for so long...
so i called rabbit to accompany me...
i'm nt quite in d mood this few days...
bad results...
loosing something...
regret...
my mood swings...
cry suddenly then get angry suddenly...
many childish actions too...
i don't like to be emotional...
but i just dunno how to...
inside me a deep secret i cannot share...
and i'm tired of carrying it...
too many too many trouble...
no matter relationship or s or studies...
dunno what to do...
wanna start pia...
but dunno why bo sim...
weep myself to sleep...
i had become someone that i always don't like...
i don't like to cry & get angry easily...
i know now that they also carry burden too...
i know i have to change my thinking...
but words are easy then actions although actions work better then words...
i wish you both were here for me...
but you treated me coldly recently...
i gonna gona bonkers...
so lost...
sometimes...
i just felt wanna leave this world...
to a better & peace world...
i always look down on people who commit suicide...
but now...
haiz...
too tired...
chaos